Friday, June 20, 2008

I smell like a garlic patch.

... I really do...

I haven't posted in a long time. I figure I'm long over due for a post - not that I have "readers" or anything, but because sometimes it's nice to get things out out of my mind.

Last night I went to see the Sex and the City movie with my lovely KB. Sometimes I forget how much I miss the series being on TV. Unfortunately I missed the first few seasons of it on TV, so a few years ago I was sick with a bad flu and my mom rented me the first two or three seasons and all I did was watch it for the days I was sick... and then repeated on some of my favorite episodes.

I had such a fab time with KB. I wish I could see more of her. If I didn't drive a gas hog and gas wasn't 298317982173982173921739217398217398217 dollars per gallon I'd go to movies with her all the time. On the way home from the movie, I had a lot of quiet time to myself and I got to thinking how lucky I am to have someone like her in my life. We've had some great convos lately about what the true definition of a friend is - and if you have to question yourself if someone is your friend or not, then clearly you have your answer. That's something that shouldn't EVER cross one's mind. That's called an acquaintance, or maybe someone you like to party with occasionally, but that doesn't classify someone as a friend, much less a true to the heart friend. I need to spend some time slowly weaning myself away from people and being open with people that do nothing for me. There are a lot of people out there that do nothing but help me consume alcohol, but never contribute anything to my heart, mind or soul. A true friend is a form of extended family, someone you should be able to trust completely and entirely. The expression "you can't pick your family, but you can pick your friends" is the best way to put it. If you choose to surround yourself with toxic friends, or careless/meaningless friends, or friends that are not honest with you, then that's completely your choice. I've come to realize recently that I have one too many of those that fall into those categories in my life - and it's time to weed them out. As Dom's eldest sister said to me the other day, it's like "having high school relationships" and she's right. I've tried to give some people the benefit of the doubt, but time and time again people prove me wrong so I'm through with them. No mas, no bueno.

I'm just very thankful I have some special people in my life. Besides my family and my boyfriend (did I mention it's my 5 YEAR ANNIVERSARY TODAY?) - I am really fortunate to have a handful of some seriously special people in my life. 3 I have known for 12+ years - and those three absolutely know who they are and what they mean to me, after everything we've been through together over the years. One special person I've known for 3+ years - but with her I feel like I've known her forever. We met randomly, got along fabulously, randomly re-met and continued to get along fabulously. OKAY so one absolutely stupid and ugly fight over what was essentially a misunderstanding, with two big egos clashing - that didn't work so well but CLEARLY in the end of it all we could not NOT want to talk to each other. But she's probably the warmest, smartest, quirkiest (in a good and fun way), outrageous person I know in all possible ways and I LOVE her for it. She's honest and loving - and that's so rare to find in a person and I'm lucky to have her in my life. If only more people were anywhere near being a faction of the person she is, the world would probably be a better place. :)